Just talked with mummy.She called me to ask me whether want go ShenZhen next January or not.If I want,then she will book the ticket for me.This is the golden chance,of coz I say 'YES!'.We then chating,then chat the topic I scared this all the time---Graduation.Those who asked me this topic before should know that how scare I am when I talked this topic.I will try my best to escape from this topic.Usually when my family ask me about my studies,I will "oo..ee..." and change the other topuc.Of course,I don't want to make them worry me.But just now I told mummy that I plan to take a semester break!!Mummy then ask me am I feel hard to study here and etc.Although I didn't say it clearly,I think mummy can guess out what is my feeling.Mummy just told me do what I want to do.If want take a break then go on.The most important thing is not to give pressure to myself.If take break,then find a job here.Just tell her after I make my decision...She just mentioned that not to give pressure myself in several times...
Mummy,really sorry.I really think to say sorry to you but I do not brave enough to say that.So I just write 'sorry' here.Your daughter,me so useless,always make you upset,dissapointed and worry about me..I am not qualify to say that I grew up in front of you..I have tried my best,but the result just make me dissapointed.Sometimes I really feel helpless but I don't want you all worry me so I choose not to tell you...I know you work your half life,just hope that I can graduate as soon as possible.So that you can retire after I get a job.I also hope like that but your retirement plan have to postpone and postpone because of me...I really don't when the plan can become true...
Besides "sorry",I also want to say "thank you",mummy.Just because you said:"You do what you want to do,you just need to tell us about your decision.Most important is not to give pressure to yourself.."I really touch after you said that.You won't know that your words can make me cry many many times.I am so useless.You use your savings to let me study and now...You not only didn't blame me,still say those touch words....Mummy,thank you for the 'freedom' you gave me.Thank You,really thank you!!!I will think properly what should I do just for your words....Hope that I can get the decision to make you feel the lessest dissapoinment as I can...
(All my dear friends,if you worry me after this,please just keep it in your heart and DO NOT ask me about this,ok??This is my little requirement...)
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