How to 'thicken' my face??!!

I feel myself so useless.Although I wake up early today,although I reached school early today,I still did not go to class.I am scare.It is because no matter how many hour I sleep every Wednesday,I still miss my 5,6 alarms.Then I just miss the classes.The lecturer is very care people late and absent.I just scare of her.I know I am useless.I have fight with myself many times.But then I still don't dare to class..I even called back and cheated my parents that I have just finished class.Tze Yeen,You really hopeless already!!!I really think to 'thicken' my face lo...