Pressure Again~~

Sometimes,some matters,really out of our control.Think already close file,but can change anytime.Is it human being just like changing?!I just think is a relax,warm conversation at first but end up the pressure is larger than any.I really not purposely escape from the 'reality', but this matter bringing more and more pressure to me.Everytime I just feel hard to breathe.When I just heard from the other side from phone,the anxious,problem voice just let me wanna cry again...

1st time having Photo Sticker in Sydney

Today's initial plan is to look for room.I have asked Doris to accompany me.We suddenly changed the route and kind of getting lost.I called to the auntie and see whether she can give me the more detail of direction however she just said her english is poor and don't know the street name.WTF?!We went so much wrong way today.At the end,we just canceled our plan.But anyway,thanks for accompany me ya~~~

After that,we went to City since Doris wanted to buy something back to M'sia.We just went [Y2K](not the Ipoh's Y2K o~) after going to Paddy's.We just chatted there lo.

Choc Blended+Grass Jelly

We can't think where we go for next.So we just went for dinner at [i-Taiwan].Before that,we saw a bunch of people walking towards Chinatown.I'm wondering what show they're having there.I just ordered some light meal since I still full with the Choc blended just now.When we walked pass my workplace,full of people there...better left the place as soon as possible.


When we passedby [Capitol Square],Doris suddenly think to having photo sticker.This is the 1st time I went to Capitol Square not for dolls...haha^^ We just walked around for long time only decided which machine.This is her 1st time having photo sticker.She get extremely excited.^^


When we go for 2nd time??!!^^

Little touch

Perhaps people now watching too much drama/movie,they always let themselves fall into the characters inside and become impractical.People always envy the characters inside the drama/movie and request more in the real world.Last time I was like that also,but don't know since when I have changed.Maybe I understand that 'Drama is drama,reality is reality'.The me now will envy the characters sometimes but so fast and get back to the real world.Back to reality,at least to me,is GOOD!!!

Just because I can back to reality,therefore I won't request too high to the person/matter.Sometimes some no intention of the words/action can make me touch.Maybe others will think I am so 'pure-minded',can be so easy to feel touch.Actually I only understand,sometimes we not really need to like in the drama/movie,life should full of excitement.Even there's normal life also can feel happiness.And of course,sometimes still hope got some 'dramatic' matters can let the life become more interesting.Actually if can notice more details of life,it will still bring some surprises also....

Nice to eat 'vinegar'!!!

Last night chatted with 'Teoh Mama',suddenly talked about 'Ginger and Pig Knuckle In Sweet Vinegar'（猪脚醋）.Feel like wanna eat now!!Too bad I'm not in Ipoh,if not,I sure can eat that.I think it's around 7-8 years I have not eaten this.Last time so many cousins,average can eat once a year.But now no new baby at home,no chance to eat.Sometimes really miss the taste~~~

Today when I was on the way to train station.I suddenly saw there's a paper stated there has 'ginger and pig knuckle in sweet vinegar'.At first I think I saw the wrong word.That is the food not commonly can find it.I can't believe it's so coincident to let me find this.But that time I'm rushing time and no time for me to look at the second time.When I finished work,I just passedby again and finally confirmed that I see the right words...haha^^

The taste is so NICE~~~~It's almost 80% with my memory.Now I only know how happiness to eat what I think to eat.The only bad thing is there's very less vinegar.I wish they gave me more...haha^^


Additional:

OMG!!What happened to him?!Slept?or DIED with smile arh??^^

This lagi teruk..just feel like what we read from newspaper always...Neh...those who always line up and brought by cop...^^

(These photos only to make you laugh...Please don't make it serious!!!wahaha^^)

RIP, Dai Yim Shang

Just knew a bad news that the main character of [Off Pedder]---Dai Yim Shang (Chan Hung Lieh) has passed away on 7.11pm due to heart attack.When I knew this,I feel very sad.He acted for over 40 years,how many audience watch his acting since small.Sometimes I will feel his voice is annoying or his character is so old-minded.But when I heard he has left us,still feel sad from the bottom heart.Especially when watched there showing around 1 minutes of memorable clip for him before the [Off Pedder] started today,my tears almost came out,feel like I have lost one of the important friends.I think this is so called 'the impact of drama',is it?!

Sometimes,human really get easy to break down.Someone maybe just joke in front of you,but already in different world in next minute.What he/she leave for us only full of memory.Sometimes,I really hope I will leave before all people that I know.People always said 'It's a happiness that can leave early,those who leave late only suffering the sadness alone'.I admit that I still not strong enough,cannot stand the 'loosing' feeling....

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Say goodbye to our Dai Yim Shang...R.I.P...And hope all people around you can stand tough~~~

Sydney's weather...SUCKS

I only said hot like hell yesterday.But this only until 2,3am today.The weather changed dramatically here.The strong winds so horrible and make me feel like the dust storm coming again.So,I just went out and get my clothes inside my room.The winds at that moment is COLD wind.Today's weather just keep cloudy and feel like raining but no rain yet.The temperature also changed from yesterday's 43°C to today's 20°C(highest).So dramatic changed.I really no idea how's the weather here.Why it can be so much different within 1 day time?! I getting like M'sia weather more.At least,M'sia won't have much difference through whole year.

Never feel HOT like now!!

These few days getter hotter here.Just like normal summer weather.But today is SUPER DUPER HOT!!!!Today checked the weather online only knew that today's highest is 43°C!!!The average temperature also around 30°C.OMG!!!For me who never 'enjoy' summertime here,totally TORTURING!!!You all in M'sia stop complaining how hot is there to me.Once you having same experience like me,you'll know how lucky you are in M'sia.My room still feel ok cause I still have fan.But when I stepped out from my house,oh gosh,feel like dying!!I only feel like I am staying inside operating oven.The hot wind just make me feel worse.I really can feel the desert weather now.Now only November,I can't imagine how I gonna tahan through the summer here...Really feel M'sia better,although it's hot through the year but at least not hot like here.Some more,every house there must have aircond now.Haih!!!Feel like wanna go back my lovely M'sia lo....

Love Story by Taylor Swift

Recently just like an English song...although it's not the new song....

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes And the flashback starts I'm standing there On a balcony in summer air

See the lights See the party,the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd And say hello,little did I know

That you were Romeo,you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase Begging you please don't go , and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo,I was a scarlet letter And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me I was begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me,then try to tell me how to feel This love is difficult,but it's real
Don't be afraid,we'll make it out of this mess It's a love story baby just say yes Oh oh

I got tired of waiting Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head?I don't know what to think He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, Marry me Juliet You'll never have to be alone I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad,go pick out a white dress It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh,oh,oh,oh 'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

Long time DON'T angry 1 people like now!

I think not only myself,those who know me long time won't deny that my temper is improved if compared last time during high school.I try not to care so much now to let myself relax.But today I really beh tahan already!SOMEONE is just TOTALLY IRRITATING ME!!!For those who've read my blog will know I really dislike an aunty in my workplace.I just think she is invisible along this time but today,when I just started working in stall,she suddenly PUSHED me away and doing business on my side.#%&^#@#%&!!!!What the hell she pushing me away!!No manner at all!!I really angry that time but I still can stop myself to quarrel with her.After a while,I went to ask people in charge about too many people standing at my side(4 people for 1 side of stall,too much).Then 1 of the new girl just arranged to help the rice roll side because Ivy will go back China next week.The new girl haven't learned all the things then the pk went to complain to the boss.I can't really listen every word from them but the boss suddenly said so loud:"What?!Can't again!!!3 people also CANNOT?!".There's 3 people standing my side.It's so obvious which 3 people they're mentioning.That time I get more angry!Although I knew the truth is not what I though,still feel angry lo....She really think herself so important lo...Now not for her to choose who,is who will agree to help her!!!If I was asked to help her,I DEFINITELY REFUSE!!!Who she think she is?!I won't care!The worst is I get fired but it doesn't matter!I still can survive if losing this job. At last,they just asked her niece to help her.Her niece even 'tissue,inside,outside' also don't know.Now I'm just waiting to see them die next week after Ivy has gone.Don't expect I will help them!!!It's NO WAY!!! The funny thing is when I get my paid after my work,boss told me that she has increased my paid and asked me don't tell others since she only increased mine.Although her reason is because I worked in stall,there's other reasons came on my mind lo.....

A memorable Date with co-workers

We have talked for a long time finally today can go out together.

At first we have planned singing k at 3pm but some people just misunderstood my sms and get the wrong time.But we still went to sing even only 3 of us.Got advantage for less people...at least can sing more la!Today my voice is not good cause of the effect of sore throat last few day.I suddenly notice that recently like saying go to sing k also will have sore throat.Weird! Something happened while we singing k.I only know is MY FAULT again after long time.Think to apologize to 'you' again here..I promise I will try not to be that again,ok?


We went to[Musashi Japanese Dining]to meet others.When we get there,we're so surprise to see Ivy being abnormal.Then we only knew that they went to bar while waiting us.She only drank 1 Bourbon Coke already drunk.Her behavior really make people 'scare' sometimes la...^^ I feel so lucky those around me just sleep directly when they get drunk and won't be too high like her.wahaha^^ Dear,I WON'T bring you to drink!!!^^

We felt so full that time so we just share a Bento set...

Today's dangerous:

After dinner,we went to [Passionflower Cafe] to eat dessert.Today really full.Still haven't digest the lunch then dinner time,and dessert again right after dinner.We just shared our ice-cream and chatted there.Then,we went for our k-time PART 2.This time have more people so less chance to hold the mic.But I still sang until totally 'VOICELESS' .Don't know how to work tomorrow now.^^ Oh ya,remember just now I said there's someone was high?She just reached another level---SLEEPING when we're in K room.We only woke her up when we wanna to leave.But still lucky that she reached home safely.

There is so hard got chance for us to have fun together.Hope our 'next time' won't be long...

(Still have photo in friend's phone.Will upload when I get it)

--Please DO NOT Disturb--

Sorry，I let the 'Crying Yeen' escaped from my heart again...I cried a lot these few days..just like I want to cry out all the water I drink in these few days...My friends all asked me not to think so negative since the things what I scare still haven't happened yet or it will never happened.Many friends talked the same thing to me.What you all said to me,I understand,I think before too.Even myself also no idea why I just think so negative.The things maybe not as bad as I think.The worst maybe I just have to suffer around 1 year for the thing I scared.I already agreed to continue my shop after graduate here.So I will still go back.That time what I'm worrying will disappear.The things still not bad as what we think,right?!I really feel to let 'you' 24 hours staying with me,feel to hug 'you' tight,but I am scare.I scare I will get more into 'you' and cannot let 'you' go if 'that day' arrive.When I heard 'you' changed the familiar song as your ringtone just now,'you' won't know how hurt I am.I walked out because I cannot tahan my tear anymore.Your ringtones said your mind,isn't it?I really wish 'you' can say 'it is not' in front of me,I wish 'you' can insist more,I wish 'you' can be more domineering to refuse to let me go...Sometimes I will think,if 'that day' really arrive,is it only a way that we can go?Is there any other way for us?

I think I will come less here or maybe just writing all negative thing here...Sorry to all my friends if I don't reply your msn,facebook or others...

黑夜将城市笼罩 想念蔓延在细胞
想你的拥抱你的微笑 想到快要疯掉
爱你到莫名其妙 什么已无可救药 没有你会死掉
我不再开心的笑 痛苦在胸口燃烧
在你离开以后 寂寞把我逼进了墙角
不听别人的劝告 才掉进你的圈套
现在知道却放不掉 世界慢慢的变老
戒不掉对你的依靠 失去重心该怎么好
每个表情都能治疗相思的煎熬
戒不掉你对我的好 像被关在想念的牢
只剩寂寞缠绕着我 我无路可逃
就是戒不掉对你的依靠
就是戒不掉你对我的好

--None--

If 2 people who not love each other should separate,then is it helpless for 2 people who love each other get separated?!

Xiao Xin Rou came to the world lo!!!

Today my msn and Facebook's title all wishing mummy happy birthday.So IMPORTANT thing how dare I forget la...Still can't celebrate with her this year but I still wish her by card,sms and call already.^^ Mummy,happy birthday.No need to worry if you forget your age,because your good girl---ME will remind you this day of every year....hehe^^


At first I think mummy is the BIGGEST today,but 'CNN' just told me that our 'Xiao Xin Rou' come to say 'hi' to us today 4 am.She came out 2 weeks earlier..Luckily Ah Liao got show me her belly through the webcam last few days.If not,I think I still need to wait few years for her next baby lo...right?! Aiyo,I miss the 'historical' scene again.I can't wait to see 'xiao xin rou'.Anyone take photo for me??!!! Xiao xin rou is same birthday with my mumym,how nice it is!!!

Today write so many different thing,luckily most of them is happy thing.Think to cook at home today since my landlords not at home.Bought some vege and meat after finish working today.Think to have some 'unusual' today,but it will take at least 1 hour to cook.So I just started to cook once I get back home.I used more than 1 hour to finish 2 dishes which take longer time and planned to start to cook another 2 dishes after 'someone' calling.Who knows,'someone' called me around 7pm and told me he felt headache so I just asked him take a rest and no need to come.Health is most important.He just missed the chance to try my cooking lo...You know I am not always got mood to cook ma...haha^^

This is the 'unusual' I mentioned...

1st, you need to cook the curry paste....

Then,add the coconut milk and meat...then covered for around 60 minutes to braise...(many steps to cook lo)

3 dishes and 1 soup for today...

Not finish yet..................................

Next is the [18SG] lo...

Get frighten?!When I was so focus on cutting meat,'CNN' sms me said about xiao xin rou and this good news really make me excited and accidentally cut my finger!!!I used around half hour to wait it stop bleeding....Haih...prove that I really not suitable enter kitchen lo...wahahaha

No one will 'CONTROL' Me AGAIN for the next 14 days

Why I say like that leh?!It's because my landlords went overseas already!They went to NZ today and back on 18/11.So,now Teng Teng and I are the 'KINGs' in house lo!!!^^ But actually I am little bit angry when talked about this la...Last night they suddenly asked me out and asked me not to do something(I won't tell here).Their last few words just make me angry the most..."You need to take care of our(here 'our' only mean 'themselves') house's safety!" Phew!!!Now who don't care of the safety?!Who don't lock the balcony door EVERYTIME when out?!Who even don't close the main door many times(Listen!It's don't 'CLOSE',not don't 'LOCK')?!Everytime no matter I at home alone or go out,I will make sure the balcony door is locked and the main door is double-locked!Sometimes really feel not happy staying here.They will just suspect me first when every not-good thing happened.But I can say it loud here...I am the cleanest and care the safety most in this house!Cis!I wont's care them already...I just 'o o o' to them but listen or not,still need to see my mood!!!!wahaha^^

Now have to plan see what can do within these 14 days lo...Actually,not only me exciting...'they' also planning secretly already....^^

"Yeah!We can ask our 'siblings' having party in these 14 days lo...."

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Just post some random pictures here:

5-year-old Yeen:"Daddy,can you buy this for me?!It's nicer than the adult's laptop and it's with the mouse also!!"

If you think it's just a bag,you are wrong...(link with next photo)

It's a cosmetic bag!!!

This is the cosmetic box which particularly for kids..(Link with next photo)

Cis!It's more pro and complete than last time when I learned in beauty course!The price..more expensive la...of course (A$100+++)

If let 'someone' see this,sure she can't tahan!!!(Nah...Don't ask me buy...too expensive for me)

Little Witch and Little Vampire came out on Halloween!!

Last photo...Heng!!!

Help!'Someone' 'tortured' me!!!(I got prove here!!!'You' cannot deny already!!!Wahaha^^)

Useless..

Since when I scare to chat with family?!

Since when I only bring disappointments to them,not hopes?!

Since when I like to cry?!

When...when...

Don't know why I suddenly wish to lost contact with every of my family...

Although wish to hear their voice...but they just keep asking the topic that I don't want to listen everytime...

Maybe I can change the topic very fast...but still can see the disappointment on their faces...

That expression...just like a sharp knife,knob to my heart deeply again and again...

My heart is broken, my heart is bleeding...

What I can do is only switch off the light and cry under blanket...

There's so much 'sorry' keep in my heart which I don't dare to say it out...

Maybe I keep feeling my heart ache just because of this reason...

I know how useless I am but parents still make me as their proud daughter...

How much pressure I have??What can I do?? I really have NO IDEA!!!!!!!!!!